Don’t worry, the struggle is good. Learning to model is all about getting your brain to adapt to all the ways things shouldn’t be. You will never ever start model and things will work out perfectly fine and you’ll just magically learn. When your brain starts to get it, it’s because you have been in so many messed up situations you star to realize what not to do and which path is the path that works. That is why it’s so important to start over when you’re a beginner.