start posting this really bad work in this forum and get critiques…
this will do 2 things…
1. it will let you see your work through the audiences eyes (and you may be surprised to find they like things about it)…
2. it will give someone the opportunity to see what is “right/wrong” and help you to “fix it”…
it is a very good tool to break you out of the “depression” you have expressed…
last thing to remember you are not competing with anyone, just trying to do the best you can…
hope this helps…
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