Reply To: How do I muster up the ability to create a ‘platform’ in a stage like this?

[Jonas Grund]

okay I can feel your pain.
Don´t feel alone. Trust me. Everybody was there where you are now. And sometimes we are going back to that point….

Don´t stress yourself. Don´t expect archievements on mid-term… learn to think on long term and have patience. 

Life isn´t easy and for a 100% it won´t turn out as you wish it to be. In fact you will only get what you work hard for. But you won´t be able to plan even that because life will take it own turns and you will be confronted with things you´d never imagened. But that´s what will make you grow, will make strong and will define you as person and finally as an artist. In the end you will benefit from your struggle.
I recommend you to watch Steve Job´s famous graduation speech on youtube.

I see your frustration but that only proves you are on the right way. You have the passion to do something, to create something and to archieve your goals.
But I kind of have the feeling you lead your energy in the wrong direction – have the wrong motives. You do CG because… Why exactly? To show off your work online and to get a freelance job? That kind of goals are too weak. It´s the same as going to work for money. These people hate their jobs and are frustrated of life. I guess you have a lot of passion and love for your art. Maybe it´s time to think about your motives and goals. Focus on the essence what really gets you going – from the bottom of your heart. Look into yourself.

Don´t worry about school eating time up. If you do have patience, you will find a way to get both – your school and your personal interests – in harmony. I personally struggle with a similiar issue atm. It´s hard to get all things managed… it is a daily struggle but worth it. And it´s hard for me to accept that it will payoff over a long period of time… 

So don´t give up. Would be a waste! I truly wish you a productive and good 2018. Happy new Year! 😉