That’s a great spirit, @bozurk. I am myself trying to develop my skills and establish myself as a pro in the 3d-world. And to achieve that — in my opinion ofc — it is very important to have a clear goal. You love video-gaming — that’s great. Try to create a simple (but solid) game that works.
I am going a bit off the subject but still: try to set yourself a clear goal, a result that values all your efforts. If it is too big for you or too complicated for you now — split it in segments — if those segments are too big — split them too. And then just keep pushing and keep moving along that road piece by piece or leap by leap.
Each milestone you pass brings you closer to your goal and fills you with confidence and satisfaction.
So you keep that mindset and keep going!