Hi @originalcharacter,
It sounds like you are be expecting too much of yourself too soon. It might be a matter of changing your perspective on things.
You could aim to make your project as good as someone who has had 15+ years of experience, but that would be counter productive. Just aim to make it better than your last project.
What ever level you’re at, the goal is to get to the next one.
Your subscription fee will get you to that next level, one level at a time.
Please don’t feel like you are slow to learn.
Q: How long does it take to learn something?
A: Exactly as long as it needs to.
Sending you some motivating vibes OC, you can do it!